Friday, October 17, 2014

Heart of Flesh

"I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; I will remove your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh." Ezekiel 36:26

Every Shabbat this is recited. It is actually the center of 3 verses we say. "Then I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your filthiness and from all your idols. 26"Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; and I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. 27"I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will be careful to observe My ordinances."

Dealing today with heart issues and watching my little boy ( who now towers over me) go through tests. My Jaden, my laughter.

As we stood there, listening to his heart, I remembered the first time I heard his heart beat. It was after we had lost his sister, Lily. Hearing that beat was so reassuring. He was strong and alive and we had a fight for this kid! I was insanely sick with morning sickness and had a IV back pack and eventually bed rest before and after his birth. When he finally made his appearance, the umbilical cord was wrapped 3 times around his neck, unable to loosen it, they flipped him over and over to get it off and get him breathing. He was a patient at Johns Hopkins in the first month.
The rabbi did his bris on day 9, not 8, because none of the other Jewish families in the DC/Baltimore area would have a Bris on Christmas Eve.
We weren't so picky. We were just glad he was with us. 
After the Brit Milah, I picked him up out of the bassinet and as I turned, ambient candles shattered, scorching his blankets with flaming glass.
Seriously! It has been a fight for this boy!

I used to complain about his broken noses. Was it 9 or 11? Until we found out if he hit his chest, it could damage his heart. Thank G-d, the kid falls on his face!

Now we find ourselves in a season if rest and waiting. How much we are needing it! A sabbatical year to catch eachother up and just be a family together.

(Tests are off to specialists. So literally more waiting.)

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