i tore my shoulder a week ago the stuff they gave me, wired me.
my computer looks totally fried. and Sp10 matches needed to be done.
girl scout cookies have to be delivered.
socks must be kitchnered.
and then there is the UCDavis stuff:
besides monitoring her for kidney failure, intestinal blockages, unexplained bruises, arthritis, we also have to make sure the blood vessels in Tirzah's eyes do not rupture. no one has mentioned her eys before, so another referal and another dr.
and so i pray that G-d holds this little girl together so she can go to africa-which is all she desires.
and now that the continent is soaked with islam...how do you send a jewish girl to muslim africa?
so i was just a mess, awash in not trusting G-d.
a visiting missionary-from africa- was here this week. he asked if G-d wants her to go to africa, dont you think he can heal her so she can go?
and i struggle with that. i believe He can, but i do not know His will for her life. i do not know if He has another plan using this disease, or if He will do the miraculous with an untreatable illness.
But Jeremiah 32v27 says "behold, I am the L-rd the G-d of all mankind. Is anything too hard for Me?"
did i mention my inlaws are coming in this weekend. atleast we got a few days notice this time